Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Home and heart...

I don't know if everyone would consider it a "small town".
With its own police station, magistrate's court and 6 counter post office... right next to each other in one street.
One of the local animal feed co-ops sit across the road from the court, farmer's and suburban pet owners alike, pulling into the parking lot ready to stock up for the week and get supplies.

Most of the shops and banks line either side of the main road, the "city centre".
There is no mall or large shopping centres.
It's a little town, with popular chain stores, chemists, fast food franchises, hardwares and a watch store/barber that has been in the same shop for nearly 3 decades.

Doctor and dentists rooms outnumber the lawfirms and sit in former suburban homes in the surrounding neighbourhoods.

Its endearing, with it's own charm.
Admittedly not quite like the neighbouring village that it borrows its police department and municipal infrastructure too. But it has charm nonetheless.

I've lived in towns and cities, trendy suburbs
And here I have found my heart... repeatedly over the last two decades.

It's here I am home.

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Of course it's difficult...

Something that came up in my Instagram timeline that has planted a light in my soul.
As this year I battle to find footing...still. sometimes you're brought these little flecks.
No one, absolutely not a single human being in existence right now, can live your life for you. Nor can they make you happy or fulfill your purpose.

This little spark I read was about "feeling" and how as humans we exist in this artificial world where we avoid anything that will make us really feel. Lack of human contact, voices, laughing, crying... are we so subconsciously in fear of pain that we'd rather not have anything?
We live our lives on social media...during the most important hours of our daily existence...
Who knows for sure...

I know things need to change... in this little life that is mine. And noone can make that happen.
Only I will beable to see whats missing and only I can open the doors to allow things in.
The journey continues...

So does the job hunt.