Time stops for no one...

No matter how few and far between... When a downer hits, it really can *feel* like the end of the world.
This inconsolable sadness/anger/sulk... Whether you're bipolar or unipolar... If you are you'll know it.
There's hardly ever a logical reason for it though...

For the downer... Not the polar (because that all has to do with proteins and the brains chemical imbalance etc etc).

As I sink into a heavy work schedule, overcast skies (hopefully some rain), and the hope for this moment to pass...
I can't let go of the "value of life".

Can you?

Misunderstood...

Just because the vocalist is screaming, doesn't mean the words aren't far more relevant to reality than the shit your cutesy little poppers spew out.
Hardcore doesn't mean that they're swearing... hardcore means that they're talking about the things you'd prefer to ignore.

Fuelled by coffee... Saturday musings

"In The Fade" - Queens of the Stone Age

Cracks in the ceiling, crooked pictures in the heart

Countin and breathin, I'm leaving here tomorrow

They don't know, I'd never do you any good

Laughin is easy, I would if I could

Ain't gonna worry

Just live till you die, wanna drown

With nowhere to fall into the arms of someone

There's nothing to save I know

You live till you die

Live till you die, I know

Loosing a feelin', that I couldn't give away

Countin and breathin, disappearin in the fade

They don't know, I'd never do you any good

Stoppin and stayin, I would if I could

Ain't gonna worry

Just live till you die, wanna drown

With nowhere to fall into the arms of someone

There's nothing to save I know

You live till you die

That extra hashbrown...

Finally got my picky little paws on the HTC Desire X this week.
Can one *really* love a phone...because if one *can*...

Also this week I've come to realise :

* that I don't get the slipper fashion statement
* how love/relationships can end up for more complicated than they need be
* we're all way too sensitive about things that shouldn't matter.....and desensitised to things that shouldatter
* build a bridge
* there are people who are too amazing to let out of your life
* some people really cannot make coffee and shouldn't be allowed near a coffee machine
* laughing is good... Laughing at others misfortunes isn't
* making things that other people enjoy can be more fulfilling than money...sometimes
* Phil Collins makes pretty wicked tunes
* dogs and cats make a home so much better to LIVE in...but not necessarily liveable....specially if you have allergies.
* sometimes you'll need to swallow your pride and ask for some charity...

Little things...

Orphan

Astraeus

Apollo

Meet your hero...

Where do I even begin to understand/grasp this past week?

Inbetween nausea, listlessness, hope, love, bliss.... I found time to live.
Wednesday a new little puppymonster came into my life by way of trying to avoid getting driven over by trucks.
The tiny (tinier than cats), black dog that I'm assuming is a daschund yorkie cross, seems to have found a home between me and my two boys. She's still without a name and answers to my voice...in general, even when I'm not talking to her. *sigh*

I have some AMAZING people in my life that have been filling my weekends and spaces in the week... and will continue to do so as long as I am their friend.
The Henley girls and new Henley boy have just been so awesome. Spent yet another weekend between the 3 of them, as well as with another Henley boy who's 20th birthday was yesterday.
We braaied under the stars, surrounded by citronella candles planted in the flower beds and lighting our sitting space. Cats and kittens and a clumsy nanny dog found the little gaps between all us humans and we had the most amazing and peaceful evening.

The new Henley boy has also been smashing my external full of new music, which I am so on another level with.
Kongos... I finally ! finally ! got ahold of their music and have been listening to it for a good section of today. I am shocked that my neighbours haven't taken the trip to come ask me to shut up my tunes.

Between brainstorming on very new brilliant ideas with one of my Henley girls, being spoilt by our market mom and dad, being surrounded by beautiful music, puppymonsters, horsebeasts, cats and vicious kettehs, yea... my life is pretty amazing. I am still swooning from this weekend.

Already have exciting dinner plans for this week with MORE gorgeous friends, I almost cannot wait for this week.

But as today dissipates along with what ever is left of the weekend... I'm doing shop edits, making stock and orders of the "super slouch" kids beanies that are now available... and inbetween I'm also cleaning my house >.< someone's gotta do it.

Go forth and have an amazing remainder to your Sunday and onward to a beautiful and surprising week.

A few days later...

Its 2 days after the first official braai in my new little house.

This weekend was just so refreshing!

Meeting new people, seeing people I know. Laughs, drinks, sunshine, hubbly, rain....

The Henley girls bought and brought a whole lot of plants for my garden as their housewarming/birthday gift for me... and I am just swooning still over it. My garden is going to look fantastic!

The dogsmonsters are settling in...even enough to tear up a rubbish bag outside the front door....that I stood picking up at nearly midnight.
It really has been an experience.
Its how its been in most of my places after a move...is that how its been for everyone?

Also...I have found an online community that I hope I'll continue getting comfortable in. Its great knowing there are "others" out there...

...life otherwise is looking pretty good.  I hope everyone's feeling the same :)